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Would you believe that I am in front of the computer even though I only had more or less 3 hours of sleep yesterday? hehe… I just felt like I need something new, I’m tired right now… and I need something to take my mind off things and blogging usually helps me and the only problem now is what to blog about?

I am happy and content, tired and slightly stressed out but I am very fulfilled, to the point that the fulfillment is overpowering the tiredness and sleepiness I am feeling almost everyday now (hehe). I have been blessed, with the people I met, people I get to hang out with, the people I am getting in touch with. In this week and the last, I realized several things:

• I don’t have to wait nor do I have to worry about everything all the time for everything has a purpose.
• Everything must be accepted for what they are, the true test of your character is what you’d do in a situation that you hardly wanted to be in.
• I have to dream and think big. Visualize myself attaining my goals and relish any experience I get as I attain my dreams.
• It’s not where I am but who I am and who I know, how I treat other people and how they respond to me.
• I don’t have to be afraid about everything - fear breeds doubts and to get to the place where I really want to be I have to cast almost all of my doubts aside. I said almost because, I feel that it’s good to doubt yourself sometimes. It makes you more human and it makes you accept that you too have your faults.
• Fear is nothing but a word, if you’re too afraid to do something then don’t expect to be able to do anything.

I know it’s boring, and as I’m typing this there have been some thoughts left to be formulated, but I just want to put it here where I can go back and read them once again in the future.

On Being a Student and the Government

Being a former PUPian, I was very exposed to activists, their lifestyle, their way of thinking and reasoning. When I was transferred to mid, I met someone who I suspect is from my alma mater as well. Why? because of the way he thinks. One day he went to work wearing a medal without the gold thing, when asked why he’s wearing such a thing he went on explaining his ideals. When I was listening to him I thought to myself what a typical Filipino. Always full of ideas… Ayun, full of ideas waiting to be tapped, so if no one asked him what was his wearing a medal all about no one would ever know what he thinks. Why not just wear a shirt saying “I sold my gold medal” in the front and “PGMA sucks” at the back. Then yesterday he wore a cloth over his mouth, I don’t have to ask why he did it, for I know it means that PGMA is silencing people like him, or ideas to that effect.

Truth to tell, I never really liked activists from my former school. There they are, complaining about stuff such as lack of facilities, no rooms, no professors almost all of the time. That we don’t get the education and budget that we as “Scholars of the Nation” deserve. But if you’d come to think of it, they’re the ones complaining when all they have done there is just that. Complain. Rally. Whine. How long have they been staying there? Five years? Six? Seven? And after that, more years doing that. Opposing the government.

In all of those times I could have taken up Political Science or Accountancy and then worked while studying law. Graduate. Practice my profession then run for office and then make the changes as I see fit. heck, I don’t even have to run for office, all I have to have is my willpower and a proactive attitude!

It’s good to voice your opinion, I mean here I am whining about people whining, but you have to make sure that you are setting a good example. Why say that the government is not doing their job properly when you as a student who are supposed to study, study, study is not doing yours properly as well by staying longer than necessary in a school that is being run by people who are working their assess off? Where did the cliche that says “Wipe your face clean first before you go on pointing other people’s dirt” went?

I don’t know… I guess I’m just annoyed and irritated by people who are very willing to share their endeavors to everyone and go on criticizing other people when they are not doing anything better themselves. *sigh* Oh, and just a note, I didn’t wrote this rant because of the co-worker, he just made me remember how I don’t like that kind of attitude in my former school and in most Filipinos.