Watch out for the fatty!
I gained some weight since working at home… OK, you don’t want that, I got fatter and huge, I tell you. Not having to walk a long distance just to get to my workplace nor wake up hours before my actual working time suits me, and apparently, suits me too well. Being such a lazy bum doesn’t help either. So the result? Being called a pig, taba, fat-ass, “you look like a bouncer”, “you make me sick” and other snide (and not to mention hurtful) remarks every five minutes or whenever I open my mouth, whichever comes first. (Of course, I exaggerate)
Man… life really IS ironic, isn’t it? Just when I thought no one can point anything at me… here I am, ta-da! A big, fat pig that is, aside from having a weak sense of direction and stupidity that is waaay beyond all things stupid, by drinking a hot beverage on a straw.
Being Beautiful
You know why a lot of women are becoming anorexic, bulimic and other psychological problems related to eating habits? It’s this kind of pressure that is just so sickening and unjust! Been there, done that, really, I have been there.
There was a time when I would eat a small portion of food even though I’m dead hungry, I might get fat. Actually, now that I think about it, I really don’t want to eat then but my Mom is really “makulit”. She would not rest until she sees all of us eating together. There was a time when I would eat heartily but exercise an hour or so after to sweat A LOT so I would lose what I ate. There was a time when I would eat less and exercise more so I could lose all the holiday excess.
First one happened while I was in Elementary, the last two was when I was in College. You know what that felt? It felt so horrible. I have never said this out loud before because I am disappointed with myself and well… I thought that was good. I know that beauty comes from the inside, but one can’t blame another for being superficial thinking that what other think are more important than your health.
I love food. I do, I do, I do! I love food especially when it is creamy, saucy and flavorful. I love eating ice creams, cakes, cookies, chocolates, salads, Sisig and a whole lot more that increases the chances that I might have diabetes years from now. Does that make me less of a person? A less of a woman? Does that mean that my friends will desert me for someone more skinny? Does that mean that no man will ever want to be with me? Does that mean that I will not be able to find a man who would like to be with me for the rest of my life? Does that mean that people will no longer hire me because I’m fat?
Whatever happened to having some personality?
I can get thin, I know I can. But not right now. Not because people wants me to be thin. Not because I’m so sick of being called a pig and fat. Not because of that. Know why? Because I’m hurt right now. It hurts that I am called like that because I gained weight. It not only hurts my feelings but my pride as well. Do I want to prove them right and hurt myself even further?
No, if I will ever get thin that will be because I want to or because it’s seriously affecting my health thus affecting my work and the way I relate to other people, and not because some smart-ass tells me that I’m getting too fat. Too fat for their comfort I guess.
What’s your take? Am I just being overly sensitive for the nth time? wahaha *sigh* end rant
Hehe, ayan, buti nag-update ka na. Kasi naman nung nakita ko sabi mo may spoilers ng 300, di ko na binasa. :p
Mae, sometimes people go through that phase, just to appreciate themselves more. I have personally never had to deal with eating disorders or other insecurities just because the media is feeding the people with mindless entertainment and unfounded standard of everything.
You make your own personality. You make your own decisions. You make your own limits. You make your own standards. Ikaw lang makapagsasabi kung hanggang saan ka lang, at kung kailan ka magdedecide magpapayat. The important thing is that you should never lose respect and appreciation for yourself. And I’m sure you wouldn’t.
Take it from someone who’s been fat 95% of her life. Take it from someone who’s been on the receiving end of discrimination 95% of her life. Take it from someone who’s been ridiculed even by her own family. Take it from me, Mae. Okay lang yan. When you feel like you have no one, just remember: you will always have yourself. :)
Drama!
I know exactly how u feel, Mae. I hate it when people come up to me and say “Uy, nagkakalaman ka na ah.” - Argh. Why don’t they just say it? I’m getting fat, I knoooow! LOL.
Contrary to what is said above, I want to lose weight not because I want to conform to the standards set by society, but because I just personally want it to happen. Mahirap na. Magastos mamili ng bagong damit, lalo na pants. LOL.
Like you said, gusto ko rin pumayat, pero wag muna ngayon, hahaha! What can I say? Ansarap kumain ehhh… :D So pano, mag enroll na tayo sa gym? Hindi lng tayo papayat, magiging healthy pa. Malayo sa risk ng sakit sa puso. :D
bakit ba ang mga babae kahit hindi naman mataba sinasabi nilang mataba sila? hahaha. palit tayo ng metabolism, gusto mo?
Shari: So that’s why hindi ka nagco-comment! hehe watch it na kasi! :) Hay naku… That’s why nagda-drama ako kasi two of the remarks I mentioned above was from my sister and father :(
Joni: Oo nga naman! hahaha grabe… nahihirapan na nga ako maghanap ng pants :( Kasi naman ang mahal sa gym… Magwo-work out ba tayo sa ginto? hehe :P
Aaron: LOL pwede ba?? hehe
it’s really just plain stupid to equalte beauty with slimness. Why must self-worth be based on a comparison with other people? Just my two cents. ;)
I actually have a friend who prefers BIG WOMEN. I actually courted someone NOT SLIM once. No, beauty and slimness do not equate. :) Personality is still important. You know the concept of “Intellectually Sexy?” Some people (like me) prefer intellectually sexy women.
Mae: On second thought, wag na tayo gym. Mahal pala yun. Hahaha! First day ni Ganns sa gold’s gym ngayon. Gudlak, ganns!!!
watch out for the nominee!
congrats. :p
hay true, ako din nga laging inaasar ang taba ko na daw..exagg masyado! hehe..hey, congrats sa finals..wohoo!
Tim: man… how I wish everyone would think like that!
Jozzua: Hehe, yeah, I like men who are intellectually sexy as well :D
Joni: Talaga? Sabihin mo naman palibre!! hahaha
Benj and Liz: Thanks!!! Wow!! hahaha baka naawa sila sakin nabasa nila yung goodbye post ko LOL
[...] Benj commented saying “watch out for the nominee”, I was puzzled because, I know I was a nominee so I [...]
[...] I’m finally sick of being the fat girl after one unbearable night that got me depressed for weeks and made me decide that I will take a [...]
[...] don’t want to give up my sweet tooth because I love food too much to give it up, but I have to control it, so starting tomorrow, I’ll allow myself with three [...]