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Two memes, one song and one supposed to be philosophical thingamajig, all in one post.

Because I’m lazy like that.

Meme: Define Love Without Using the Cliche Versions

A meme that’s a few months old from Ely because he knows I’m a cynic and these kinds of exercises are best done by people like me. Other people will argue, however, that I’m just bitter but why should I listen to them, yes? I am not bitter, I are cynical, get it?! Good. (And yes, talking to myself is one of my hobbies, so go run in the corner or something)

Anyway, going back, that means “Love is like a rosary because it’s full of mystery” and “Love is blind” (no matter how true) is out of the question. I tried thinking of it for a full two hours and then I gave up, it’s just too hard!

I gave it some more thought again and let me tell you, this is the best thought that ever came to this useless meat sitting within my skull, which we call brain, since I was born:

Love sux.

Fitting isn’t it? LOL Of course that was a joke (why do I tell jokes which only I find amusing? Not laughing at other people’s jokes to make them feel better should be illegal, I’m just saying…) OK, so let’s try that again…

Love is a fleeting feeling which introduces romance, leads to relationships and ends in either marriage or break up. Or both. Or both. Or both.

I say it’s good enough. So on to tag other people, let the lurv go around! Let’s see… Rhiz, Liz, Joni, Tina and Ganns! Cooperate people! :)

Meme: Mother’s Day

It’s a week old, but I believe that everyday should be treated as mother’s day because our mothers do not only assume the role of being our mothers every 2nd week of May. (Nice, no? :D) So here’s my take on Joni’s meme:

Mama and I are not really photogenic so my apology to those who have just eaten or are currently eating while reading this, let it be known that the offense was not meant. hehe

Seriously, my Mom and I did not have the perfect daughter-mother relationship before, I don’t why and I don’t know when it stopped either. What I do know is that whatever happened, I’m glad it did because now Mama and I have become closer and we tell each other anything whenever we have the time. I love her to pieces and I wouldn’t trade her for anything in the world.

I was just thinking the other day that right now, I can say that I’m very happy because almost everything in my life’s in place already. The company I’m working for is just terrific, my family’s great, my parents are getting fatter again (LOL) and my brothers and sisters are doing OK with their lives as well. I just hope that I don’t do anything to mess this up, but knowing myself I’d do something to create havoc. Oh, yes, I’m a professional in that department.

The Song

While I was in my emo mode last week because of some matters concerning my friends, I talked to Mito (seriously, Rhiz, you should give this guy more workload, he has way too much time in his hands as it is LOL) and he asked me what is the sweetest song for me. That time, I couldn’t think of anything else but Switchfoot’s cover of Beyonce’s Crazy in Love some may say that it’s awkward, but for me… It’s just.. perfect. When Beyonce did that all I could hear was “I’m trash!”

Anyway… while listening to some of the songs I have, I realized that there’s a better song and if sung by a girl or it was for me, that’d feel great! It was from 3rd Eye Blind and it’s called She Likes Me for Me (I researched it and according to 1 more than 1 sites, this is the correct lyrics, emphasis mine, it doesn’t mean it had to be sung louder):

She don’t care about my car,
And she don’t care about my money,
And that’s real good cause I don’t got a lot to spend,
But if I did it would mean nothing.

She likes me for me,
Not because I look like Tyson Bedford,
With the charm of Robert Redford,
Oozing out my ears,
What she sees,
Are my most rending decisions,
My insecure conditions,
And the tears upon the pillow that I shed.

She don’t care about my big screen,
Or my collection of dvds,
Things like that just never mattered much to her,
Plus she don’t watch too much tv.

She dont care that I could fly her,
To places she ain’t ever been,
If she really wants to go,
I think deep down she knows that,
All she has to say is when.

She likes me for me,
Not because I hang with Leonardo,
Or that guy who played in fargo,
I think his name was steve.
Shes the one for me,
And I just can’t live without her,
My arms belong around her,
And I’m so glad I found her once again,
And I’m so glad I found her once again,
Yeah I’m so glad I found her once again.

Gazing at the ceiling,
As we entertain our feelings in the dark,
Things that we’re afraid of,
Are gonna show us what we’re made of in the end.

She likes me for me,
Not because I sing like Pavarotti,
Or because I’m such a hottie.(sigh)

I like her for her,
Not because she’s phat like Cindy Crawford,
She has got so much to offer,
Why does she waste all her time with me?
There must be something there that I don’t see,
I don’t see.

She likes me for me,
Not because I’m tough like Dirty Harry,
Make her laugh just like Jim Carrey,
I’m like the cable guy,
But what she sees,
Is that I cant live without her,
My arms belong around her,
And I’m so glad I found her once again,
I found her once again,
Once again,
Yeah I’m so glad I found her once again.

And yes, of course I just contradicted myself that I’m a cynic when it comes to love, well, that is a nice song! You should listen to it, I love 3rd Eye Blind.

La lang, just felt like sharing it :D <3

Philosophical Thingamajig

As I’ve said before, I was on emo mode last week and I put “Emotions, they complicate life” as my status message in Adium, this one guy who used to be my chat buddy until he got so caught up with his work and family life buzzed me and told me that he’s happy that I’m now “emotionally messed up”. Of course, I asked why and what he told me was because before it seems like I’m a robot! LOL

He said that being emotional is good for me because it just confirms that yes, I’m human and that I have feelings too! But truth to tell, my emotions are like roller coaster, one day I’m at the peak of happiness then the next I’m very, very depressed, then most of the times, I question my sanity; I just don’t want to let anyone else know because:

1. I’m afraid that I might bore the one I’m talking to
2. I tend to repeat myself over and over and over and over and– when I’m sad
3. I get depressed over the smallest things, like if I couldn’t find my glasses
4. I have serious trust issues

We ended up in his favorite (and naturally my most hated) topic which is my lovelife or rather, lack thereof. He said that before, it seems like I’m a robot who doesn’t really care about guys much or getting into relationships and that all I could think about is work and that being emotional is OK. And of course, his favorite line — “You should get yourself a guy because you’re not getting any younger and you’re past your prime already.” Pressure much? LOL

It’s not like I don’t really care about guys and getting into relationships, it’s just that I feel like I’m not ready for a commitment or to be in a relationship, or I guess that’s what I want myself to believe. Work has been and will always be one of my top priorities, I just love what I do so much that I can’t stop thinking about it.

Besides, it’s not like I get to meet a lot of guys! When I said that, he told me, “then it’s not within your circle, you should expand it so you’d find someone.” I complained that everyone’s taken, gay, both, not within my reach (e.g. Johnny Depp) or all of the above. And he said I’m too negative which is pretty obvious IMO.

Why, how, when, what, where?!

Ugh, why do we need this anyway?… :(